i never want to the lose

so mine was cool liddat. the goods is when we were on call and saying stuff is that i feel love between us and feel good with it everyday!

i should say that this post isnt abt yesterday. nah as yknow ill always do a post abt yesterday thing but things not that now. since yesterday have to put on my focus on study thing....november 29 im exam remember. its today to be exact. things abt that will go next. 

so day before yesterday im otp with him. i found that he sounds so weak. ah he js got back from his trip which spot at Langkawi. kthen he says that he was js discussing abt his operation things. and he worried abt that. well im calming himself. like truly im worry for him, and im asking what is the risk. and he says if the operation isnt success he'll paralyze forever. yet he asks me do i still want to be with him when he is such handicap. nah im laughing and says that im not loving him cs he can walk. lol clearly and truly abt this ok.

then we talk abt each other feelings. yes i do love him so much. we talk abt so many things abt how we gonna move our relationship, how are our both feelings etc. ya Allah im praying that we are meant to be. ah i do sing for him. this song on this blog (your star). but im js sing the chorus part. i cant explain how i love that day! js if i can record our conversation im letting you judge how it is. he says that pray to God for us to be together someday.

he gonna hang tomorrow. wednesday yes. as the last time before he is really hahaha check in at the hospital. he will be with his friend and along with his gf tomorrow. and know he says that.......i should enjoy my last with you im touched. im hoping that all his love he had spoke to me wasnt a fake. im hoping that much than you thought, im saying this with all languages and im speak true.

ya Allah im hoping that our first meet sooner or later gonna be js fine and happening. im inlove with him abt one month with never meet. so he will be at hospital first of dec, and im not gonna be with him cs ive to wait for raro. but im saying that memey, his gf gonna be with him always eit cs she's nearer to him than me. and aaron...but hati i jauh dari dia. its nearer to you, kthen trust that i js so love you ok. and peeps! do pray for him too, im hoping always and really always he will be js fine and ok.
abt to stop is now. i got no more than this but surely my love is much more.

our distance may pains my heart. it js make me sad.

so im sorry when im start to lose myself. 

i aint a perfect and neither me to be liddat by ur side.

i js want to be urs worth one.

if you dont, please always try to got it, lotslove.