kneelers as Allah slave

me dont have anything abt new school year. i mean im not posting abt it in here. definitely im not that huah and much exciting as other person. to be exact my girls at sch. the gang and classmates. oh well you might have find out the why im being liddat. nah lemme say youre wrong. technically lah. cs i didnt did that bcs no shana in my day, its js im js the one who was determined to be unspiritual on a first day being upper form in sch. nah i got junior. this is not that new. no i mean definitely there is no new being seniors cs ive been that since standard six. k back to the topic, im feeling that my Jan 4th is not so hillarious. and theres no about to post. well if you ask me how am i feeling and my day goings well or not, those questions i bet many ppl have the answer and most of them are most likely. so need not to know the exactly of mine, cs basicly js the same. that is deals. thats why i didnt do post abt it.

so here i am now is to tell you that. ah im in the engineering course. and uniqely batu muda got biology as an extra subject which is newly added this year. and the 4 amethyst student is the first one who involve in it. so now you can call me an awesome. cun result aku nant, it marks that i am the best instead of pure science's student. i do have to raise my courage and my spirit when im in such class which really have me to put even more effort than i did last and last year. abt the offers from boarding sch, ived rejected the Teknik. meanwhile im waiting from Mara's, but i think abt it whether am going or not earlier. its abt 40 60 of the percents for going and ungoing. i feel that i should be their students cs it is my determination since last year. and the 7a's i grab is my platform or we can say my first step which ived pass, but i dont feel that i can afford it. i mean abt the studying there. mara style is really cant make into me. further more theyre way fast learner from a normal student. the pattern as for example, kerja kursus. we need to find all the things by ourself within the substances in the library or internet from computer in the lab. so clearly im trying to say it needs self confidence. and the main reason im doubting on going there is, i have my own principe. once i go there, i really dont wanna return back to batu muda. so thats why i need to think enoughly to make out the decision. as i say js now that i feel i might cant afford the styles there, so if i check in at the mara, 70% myself-speak that i will return. i didnt prepared myself yet. it is really such a big challenge to be there. 

i may can if i come to the mara when im newly step the forms level. i mean the form 1. but it depends on the upsr results which mine really unsuitable. so in my opinion, going to mara on the form 4 is late. this is not braveless person speak, this is basicly is a yes and a fact. unless a person is really want to study there and clear enough abt All the things they need, have to and must. gaining really highly courage and be strong. so here the things. im not strong enough to be in there. so now i see, it turns to 20 80 percents of going and ungoing. i need to do an istikarah pray, cs He is the one who know much than me abt my journey, as forwardly throughout my life. i can only plan.

i dont have hi for readers today. lol me for that. but i do have a bye. and always be care for urself. enough for my ending eit? i need to go to sleep. or maybe listens to the music and fell asleep anytime while hearing. need to publish this first and now im going to the shutdown. night people.