being proud

its that! on 22 dec, i got it. im so thankful that Allah listens me. He even gimme more than i want. i got no more than ThanksomuchmyLord.

im sorry! the results i got on 22 dec and so now......huehue baru update abt it. if the others haved update abt it first so im js nevermind if youre lazy to read mine, ignore jew. so i want to say that im so so so ya Allah, alhamdulillah. know what, im praying for atleast 6a which i didnt have any confidence. when im doing my mrsm test, i even did it not so serious cs i think that i wont get any place in there, yes i feel that i would had bad result. i mean maybe it is ok for everyone else, but it cant take me to my goal which that im truly one to make my parents proud of me. but. yeah i did it. im here, got 7a 1b history. as i can say, i really all out. for real im saying this but then still b. nvm, im still thankful cs usually i got c. maybe i really have to study smart. ill try when i still have a chances next year, and deal it with my spm soon. nah, youve to pray me! 

know what, my parents, i mean both (along with ayah yes) came to my day. and im happy that i can make them proud of me. who expected right that targeted student (yes i am cs i didnt attend extra class, and a bit lazy when it comes abt hmwk), got 7a........ya Allah i know all cikgu must be proud of me! hehehe im so satisfied with Your give, Lord.

most loved one. eventhough as honestly you guys didnt boost me up, but the never erase one in my heart is still and actually will always stay, ayah and moma.

actually first picture is today. im out to buy my sch shoes hehehe! the bottom one is on results day. happy face eit? or should say cute face hahahaha.

i obey to my Lord, so im really thankful to Him gimme such kejayaan yg cmrlg as i wish.

pleaselah ignore my face. im not ready like seriously. so pictures funciton is that haagen dazs huehue. my brother gimme that, i mean like it is 30 rm, haha the hell eit abg macamtu bg kat aku such. thanks abg, and you looks handsome!

so this time post gonna end with this. me with dani, my beloved bff. (i mean among the boys). k ade cerita sikit ni. psl danial amirul bin marzuki ni ha. firstly lah, dia ni manusia yg paling faham aku, eventhough perangai mmg pesen yg tak pernah aku jumpa lah. tau knp? sebab dia ni kalau aku sengaja, aku ulang k, Sengaja touching dgn dia kjp lg ang dia buat dont know je. siap ckp dkt aku cuba kalau nak jd kwn baik aku tu jgn asyik gedik je? pe jantan ni kan, uji tak uji kesabaran aku ni. dah buat aku sakit hati, mane tak merajuk lah kan? fikir sikit lah jenis ape pun seorang perempuan itu, dia ade something we call feelings ok. merajuk bukan sbb nak mengada ngada dgn kau tolol, orgni nak bg kau sedar kau dah buat salah dkt kita ni fhm. dah sakitkan hati aku. ade timetu aku punya serious touching dgn dia. mana taknya dah buat aku sakit hati. babi jelah yg mampu aku ckp masatu, tp tak ckp dkt dia pasai diani jenis tak macamtu. i mean bukan jenis yg sebut sebut perkataan lucah ni boleh dibawak main main even dgn kawan sekalipun. sng cerita dia spesis lelaki baik! (eventhough terpaksa mengaku ni takpalahkan) k nak disambung cerita, lpstu aku kemain lah taknak agkt cl dia semua. dkt sch phew mmg takde lah nak pandang muka dia even dia js about 35 darjah je kalau aku pusing blkg belah kiri. sampai baliktu aku tak pndg dia pun! ambik kau aku dah serious ni bengang dgn kau. nant balik tu dia cl (mlm lah). aku taknak agkt, tp disebabkan diani bff aku jd tak sampai hati nak ignore lama lama~ (skrg ckp lah aku ni baik hati kan) lpstu dia tanya aku lah knp berubah knp dah tak jd gedik mcm dulu, ni tak boleh nak tahan~ sakai sakai sakai gila macam nak mati! bunyi sedih je tanya aku tu tp ayat tetap menyakitkan hati. akupun macam ckp pehal dgn kau en. japgi dia ckp mcm nak start marah aku pulak. kau saja je kan buat macamni? kau saja je nak bg aku contact kau, aku cari kau setiap masa. menggedik je lebih kan fuhhhhhh sumpah lah do, kau mmg cabar aku. aku dah rasa nak potong tgn ni ha sumbat dkt dlm mulut lancincau kau tu do! sampai terkoyak kerongkong kau habis pun takpa! dah buat aku bengang pastu ade ke gi tambah lagi, tak pernah jumpa manusia macamni. bukan setakat manusia, kawan baik aku pulak tu. aku dah start malas lah, takda makna nak bazirkan telinga aku ni dgr dia merepek. tu yg aku terus je ckp, kau sakit ei, aku apebenda semua kau tak pernah nak kisah ni nak marah aku lg pehal, dahlah malas aku. bye. twenggg ni ha part sweet dia tu terbukti~ ade pulak dia tetiba macamni ei jgn bye. ye farah aku minta maaf. aku cl kau ni nak minta maaf, aku saje je bg kau mrh baru kau akan igt yg kite ni bestfriendforever. sbb kau tu mudah sgt sombong dgn aku. tp kau pulak dah mrh dkt aku, aku igt macam td kau boleh gelak macam selalu. maaf ye hahaha lpstu terus aku gelak. haha rasa mcam tak malu pulak, td dah eksyen nak bye last last cair lg. macamtulah cerita dia. aku sakit hati macam mana dgn dia ni, takdenye nak pujuk, dikutuknya aku ni dulu, satgi mulalah buat sweet sweet. mana tak aku syg dkt bff aku sorg ni kan.  i onced fall for you dani, and you got special place in my heart (somehow macam donghae) and always will be. kalau kena pd masanya, kau tgk dia ni  muka sebijik macam lee min ho ok. 

so then what abt shana eit? hahaha i aint a player but i didnt know why i feel this. yesterday night im crying 3 hours continously js bcs of too miss shana. but then im relieved when i reread conversation of dani and me. so i found that ive to move on. i cant stay at my old who love shana when shana giving me a hope and he do shows that which is too different with the things now. he somehow avoiding me, so ive to move on too. make a step which suit with his action and yeah this is. im relieved and ok now, im not so miss shana. and idk whether he still owned my heart...or not. second time, i aint a player. im js the type. so im gonna meet him next wed (hope it will be real) and it may our first outing together and last cs im going to mrsm or any hostels soon insyaAllah. so that is why im asking for meeting. so i should rest my finger now. always typing since 11 30 and this post done now. 12 30 am.

my wish right now, that Allah kabulkan permintaan aku, keluar dgn shahrul naim. atleast once in a lifetime. hope someday we both being bless, to be together. i cant lie that i still hoping on you, mr.